Sunday, September 27, 2009

Midterm Anxiety

This is the week of my personal hell. I have 3 midterms, plus a quiz in my preaching class! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This week could by far be the busiest I have ever faced so far at school. I hardly feel prepared for any of this, but I have to get through in order to be on Fall Break. I won't even be leaving to go home for it. More than likely, everyone on my floor will be gone, and I will be one of the few people that actually stick around. Gives me a chance to do things I want to do, like finally beat Kingdom Hearts II or watch a buttload of movies. It will be great.

I'll write after this hell goes away!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

It's Amazing...

When we take our lives to places we didn't think possible, we are pleasantly surprised with what happens. Now I am here journaling, after completing the journal I had brought with me to Japan, and you can see how i am going to be writing on a consistent basis now. I missed doing this, alot. Most of the time in Japan, my blog was short, I wouldn't write that much because I devoted a lot of time to the journal, but now all that is about to change. I will write more later tonight...


Friday, September 18, 2009

Inspiration from unlikely sources...

Okay, today I feel a lot like Ugly Betty. It is slowly becoming one of my favorite TV shows, and for good reason. Betty has aspiration. She doesn't take no for an answer (most of the time) and she starts making people notice her. That is what I am trying to do while I am here doing ministry. I want to get noticed. I want to be able to say that I was willing to do great things to achieve goals I was hoping to get to. This internship is one of those steps that will lead me into a bigger career, and I am still in the middle of writing that book, "I want it done before I graduate from Boyce" I always told myself, and now here I sit with only 7 months to go before I actually do graduate from College, and I am praying that will the nature of my older brother being a painter, I can become a writer and get my book out in the open. I only entered a few poems and short stories into contests, but this is the big leagues. I'm talking about writing a book here, not writing some short story that only a handful of people will see. I want to be able to say, I did this. I started something and I finished it...

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Making Tracks

I finally have a good lead into the final pages of that massive journal I brought to Japan with me. I wanted to tell the story from a BEFORE/DURING/AFTER perspective, and now I can talk about my transition into the American society. I serioulsy didn't think it was easy by any means. I basically went from Tokyo, Japan to Louisville, KY in a 24 hour period, and now I am back in school for my final year.

I seriously only take my computer out of class once a week these days. I use regular notebooks for most of my classes, and write my notes by hand...

I am in class now, so I will write again later...

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

A forward motion...

There is just so much I am trying to accomplish. I don't even know if I can do it all, but I am determined to succeed, and to keep moving no matter what I attempt to do. I am talking of course about school. I have a few goals in mind, and right now, I am just praying that all the things that I do glorify God, and help me get to better places.

Of the things that I am trying to accomplish, one of them is to have a better diet, and I have done significantly better than what I was doing before. I had absolutely no restriction, or say in what I was eating, but now, I can do anything, because I have trust in the Lord and in myself. I am trusting myself to let myself succeed.

I am still trying to get homework done, and tomorrow, I am submitting my church planting internship application. It's an exciting day because this means that the internship will be finalized and I can actually get to working with LIFESONG officially. I am happy that there is so much potential for a future career in the ministry.

Right now, I am just trying to multi-task and get a bunch of things done before this weekend.

Write again soon.

Monday, September 7, 2009

At a Crossroads...

I don't understand sometimes.

We often say we have all of these plans, and we don't follow through with them. God is the mastermind of our lives. He created us, he gave us passions and creative expressions and yet we cannot stick to a solid plan for life. I feel that way a lot nowadays. College is slowly coming to an end, and I am still cannot figure out what to do. I only know that there is something with Japanese people I see in my future. I am sure it could be here in the United States, but how this will all play out, I am unsure. The only definite plan I have is to go forward. I am meeting with the Church planting professor this week to go over the final details for my internship to officially begin. I am just now going to LifeSong (last night was my second week), and I am loving the uniqueness of this experience. I am feeling like a believer in the New Testament, meeting in a different setting than what would be considered "church". I feel stronger in my commitment to to the church by being a part of this. It is a new feeling for me. I am starting feel the real world starting to break through in my life. I have been living in a world of ivory towers and imagination that can only go so deep, but I am seeing my life for what it really is supposed to be. Working, doing things, not just sitting here and pretending to do something.

I have made a whole list of things I commit to do differently this month. I got the idea from my roommate, so I will see how far I can take this, but I really want to do something about my life differently, so I will have to see what this new list can do for me.

Keep me in prayer, that God will move in my life, and give me stronger passions and desires for my life.


Friday, September 4, 2009

Getting Started...

Sorry I haven't written in such a long time, but I am happy that things are going really well. I am working on getting things started with my new church plant home. I met with one of the pastors yesterday, and tonight I will be going over to their house for lifegroup. I am so excited about getting these things off the ground, I just have to finish some last minute paperwork for the church planting center and I will have the things off the ground really soon...