When it all comes down to it, the only answer I really have to give anymore is my salvation in Jesus. It truly is the only thing that matters the most to me. My life has been getting more and more involved in my plans to go overseas this coming summer. I am preparing myself for what could be the absolute biggest thing in my life, and I couldn’t be happier about it. I am prepared for the challenges and all of the preparation and planning that goes into that endeavor in a way I can’t even begin to explain. Last week I had the chance to start a serious round of Rosetta Stone Lessons for Japanese. My internship to Japan is less than 6 months away. I have $4 saved towards the trip, which is nothing when you really think about it, but I am only $4496 away from reaching my goal of going to Japan. My letters will be out in the mail after Christmas (for obvious reasons), and then the real adventure of putting my trust in the God who provides will come to fruition. Right now I am in Orlando, Florida on vacation with my family. We were able to get a really great deal on a condo and now we are in the process of cooking dinner. We have been able to spend 2 days at Disney (well for me anyway) and now my parents, grandma, and nephews are down at the pool area while I have some time to myself to enjoy before heading back to reality tomorrow in West Palm Beach.
I am happy that Christmas is around the corner. I can’t wait for it to be over. The pressures of the holiday season are getting to me. It’s really hard when you don’t have a lot of money to your name. You are at a loss of what to do for gifts and money is tight, especially seeing how you are in College on a full-time basis. That basically means that life is incredibly hard. I had a really good birthday, and I took people’s advice and spent the money on myself and things that I wanted and needed. Whenever I am watching TV, I come across some commercials for gifts and such, and I get a sickening feeling in my stomach. I want to be able to buy gifts for people in my family and I can’t do it. It hurts me really bad. I wish I could be able to buy my mom some new perfume and gift cards to the movies for a date night for my parents. I know that they tell me “It’s okay, and that I don’t have to buy them anything”, but I wish I really could do it.
Me and my mom are going over to find a Christmas tree this Saturday. Having a real tree will be a first for us; we haven’t done that since 1992. I am so happy about that. Real trees make Christmas better and I would be happy doing that every year of my life once I have a family of my own. I don’t have a family of my own right now, but someday I will.